It's Been a While.....Obviously

You will never know what you are going to get when I decide to write, so what I want from you all is ideas, topics. Throw it at me and I will write away!! Poems, stories, advice, anything you want. :)

Matchstick dream

We played outside in december with matchsticks burning all around us,
We feasted on the love that soared throughout the air.
We felt like never before,
We took our breathes as though they were our last.
We lived.
It is hard to believe that beneath all that toil and harship
This feeling was there waiting to happen.









(All artwork on this blog is copyright to katelyn elise shinskie 2009)

"Your promises they look like lies"

It's all for the hypocrisy.
Being honest is overrated apparently.
I know I've done it before.
So why does it hurt so bad.
I never thought this would happen again.
Especially not with him.
They all say it the same way.
I promise.
I give you my word.
A promise is a lie.
So I'm done with your promises.
I can see all your lies.
Your words are worthless.
Empty sounds.

1926

Everytime I inhale.
I lose my breath.
Everytime I cry.
My eyes become more dry.
Everytime I touch.
I become more numb.
Until today.
Today I took my first breath.
Today I cried my first tear.
Today I felt for the first time.
Again.
Expression has become so clear.
Emotion has become so raw.
It's all because of me.
Not you anymore, not any of you.

All at once

25 things

1. I feel as though in all the searching I have done. I have simply lost myself. Secretly I am terrified that I'll never discover the real me.
2. I don't want to get a real job. I would be completely content to work chill fun jobs, and just write poetry and do photography the rest of my life. As long as I can travel and do art I will be happy.
3. I feel like to many people are expecting me to do the opposite of what I want and that I'll ultimately choose what they want....that scares the crap out of me.
4. I've always told myself that I would never regret anything I did, but I do, and I lie to myself everyday saying that it doesn't matter, and that I'll eventually get over the things I've done, when I know I won't.
5. I love musicals..:)
6. I get my love of art from my mother, I also get my all my creativity from her, which I love, because no matter how distant I am from her both physically and emotionally, we will always have that connection.
7. I love love love all the music from the prince of egypt. It is seriously one of the greatest movies ever.
8. My dad loves my singing voice, and I wish I had sung more when I was around him. Somestimes I wish I could see him just to sing to him.
9. When I was little everyone told me I talked to much, now I hardly talk at all, but I have learned so much more from being silent. I should have listened years ago :)
10. I wish that I was more original, and that I could be comfortable with myself, but I'm not. I think I'm fat.
11. I used to think I was beautiful, but now I feel like I get uglier everyday.
12. My daddy used the world was my oyster, I wish I had listened.
13. I am supposed to be going into my junior year of college in the fall of 2009. I still be a freshman....
14. I want to be a super atheletic vegitarian, but instead I make up excuses not to work out.
15. I was born to be a free, independent, traveling, artistic, expressive, crazy person.....but I'm not. I have to hold myself back everyday, and I shouldn't because that is the dumbest thing I have ever written.
16. I threw away all my poetry that I wrote when I was with my ex-boyfriend because it made my fiance upset. Why would I do that? Those poems had nothing to do with my ex, and everything to do with me growing as a person. I should have stood up for myself and my art.
17. I love playing the piano, and I wish I could afford one, and the lessons to go along with it.
18. I would rather shop in a thrift store that at the mall..I don't care that other people think that that's dumb. It's practical, and fun!
19. I want a puppy so so bad!
20. I wish that I could be a ballerina, as corny and childish as that sounds....its true.
21. I strongly dislike big banks, car companies, and large corporations in general.
22. I like writing poems, but I have only completed about 4 poems since I started writing them.
23. I love scarves in the winter time..its fun.
24. I hate being dependent on anyone. It's not in my nature, but some how it keeps happening.
25. Going to see spoken word poetry ignited something in me that I will never be able to put out, or away. It opened my eyes.